Wanting to watch

Im just out of a 20 year relationship and not feeling good about having sex at the moment. Lately, I've been fantasising on having guys come to my place and strip off and masturbate while I watch maybe using sex toys....maybe even watching a couple together.I love the thought of exhibitionists showing off for me. I'd also love to catch someone playing with themselves out in the forest around near me. Do any of you have experience of doing this? I don't want to cam and do things online.....its the real situations I need. Obviously Covid putting a stop to meetings but maybe I can plan for the future.