I need time to heal

Over the last few weeks lots of men have asked to go out with me. I've just come out of a very traumatic relationship and I need to heal. I fell madly in love with a woman- a police officer. She was getting divorced from her loser husband. She had huge lawyer fees to pay and to raise the money she whored me out. She also took photos and videos of me having sex with men and women and sold them online.

She kept promising me that when she got divorced then we'd be together as a happy couple. She gave me to lots of men. it reached such a stage I'd go to her place and instantly take my clothes off and start going down on the person who was in the living room. the only respect she showed me with these men was she made them shower before sex, wear condoms, not do anal and not cum inside me- even with a condom. No man has ever done that and apart from my future husband no man ever will.

I am a slut and I know that the only difference between me and a hooker is I give it away. The hardest thing is that she made me believe she loved me. I was head over heels in love with her. That was the most painful part.

In a perverse kind of way it feels really good when you get humiliated and the like. It feels really good in a swingers club when i go into the dark room and let men fuck my brains out without asking or they just shoot their load on my face. it feels amazing when i walk downstairs completely nude covered in cum from head to toe and people call you a cheap slut as you walk past them.

However letting someone believe you love them and want to spend the rest of your life with them goes too far. When her divorce came through I went round hoping for a romantic date night.

Instead as I went to her flat the porter signalled to me. She'd packed my stuff in two suitcases and left a note saying she'd changed the locks. She'd blocked me from her phone and told me if I made any contact with her she'd press criminal charges against me.

She's in the legal profession so she knows what she's talking about.

My ideal husband would love me for who and what I am - a slut. He'd like to see me with other women and possibly men. However he wouldn't build me up and then totally let me down like this girl has done.

So guys please stop asking me to be your girlfriend or marry you for a while. I need time to heal. I went to see a ther****t and he put me under hypnosis. When i came round I found him and his female assistant fucking me.

I am going to find a gay ther****t!