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A friend once said to me that body building must be the****utic. So right he was. It, combined with the outlet to receive many praises for my efforts, known to normals as "porn", has given me the gift of confidence, and peace of mind in the fact that I no longer have to worry about how I measure up to the rest of society. It is the young me watching Conan the Barbarian and wanting to have a body like Arnold. It is the teen me training with a professional body builder and learning the form only to wait til i turned fifty to actually start dong it. It is health and wellness and above all it is the justification for every calorie I intake that I am unable to pay for. I am, in the most literal since using my body to make a dollar to live on. That is survival in action. After years of following the sheeple in their masses, I have come to realize that I was right and have been the whole entire time. Right about what my body needs to function properly, right about what my soul needs for it's ultimate happiness.
But being right about yourself and your path to greatness means diddly squat in world overfilled with selfish greedy assholes. And also don't forget there is an invisible wall between what one want's and what actually is, or reality. People have a way of convincing themselves of a false narrative. The civil war reenactments in the south are a clear example of the denial the people live under because they chose to. That war was lost two hundred years ago, and they still recreate the battles every year. Religion also works on ideology and conformity but I have already ranted about religion.
Body building is the only real thing I have ever really done. Construction was good for skill building, but you will get used if you don't stand up for yourself. When you show the bully boss you know the game, they get shittier and call you "woke". If woke means woke up and wise to the game then that's what I am. This state in the south likes to control it's people with it's religious agenda. The alcohol sunday law is a perfect example, The new medical cannabis law also illustrates it. Cannabis is cannabis no matter how you label it, but conservative states have to call it medical so they can feel better about having to allow it. The truth is, cannabis is safer than alcohol, but the stigma forces that gateway d**g to remain open, so that young drivers can cause accidents to innocent people. This country is truly ignorant as long as it vilifies a medicinal herb, and glorifies a poison. The main reason I am not gainfully employed in some cubical somewhere is because I am not equipped for office work. I should have been a farmer who rides a harly on the weekends. Now I aspire to be a farmer with enough land to have a little track for a sport bike. But I digress. Every job I have ever had was about fitting in, except body building. In my bedroom in front of the mirror I only have myself to answer to weather I do it or not. I don't have to keep up with a time sheet. I have to worry about meeting the second in command in the hall on the way to get another free cup to answer the question, "what are you working on?". The answer used to be "five o'clock", followed with a sheepish grin of subordination. When you work for a company, you are a slave to the dollar. That is who you answer to, it just goes through the boss, and their attitude. And many bosses I have had are absolutely snobby about giving you anything at all, much less what you are worth. Modern day slavery. Body building is the work from home that is ultra low stress, no zoom call, lift in the nude and like what you see while you do it. Porn is the portal to the viewers who praise the efforts with kind words, the money will come, I'm still "closet" to the normals.
Normals are those individuals who literally laugh at someone who practices health and wellness. If you know someone who laughs at people who do yoga and eat healthy, or are one yourself, that is called "being a normal". A "normal" is the kind of person who would beat up a cross dresser. A "normal" is the kind of person who could very easily become addicted to a controlled substance. A "normal" is a conformist. A church is full of people trying to be "normal". The governor of Florida is enacting laws to enforce normalcy, or his conservative version of it. Conservatives are shitty, judgy, holier than thou snobs and I am glad I gave up many years ago caring about what they think. But that is the stigma I have lived with, that thing called attitude. But that rebellion is overpowered by the admiration I have for my amazing body in a pair of stiletto heels.
But being right about yourself and your path to greatness means diddly squat in world overfilled with selfish greedy assholes. And also don't forget there is an invisible wall between what one want's and what actually is, or reality. People have a way of convincing themselves of a false narrative. The civil war reenactments in the south are a clear example of the denial the people live under because they chose to. That war was lost two hundred years ago, and they still recreate the battles every year. Religion also works on ideology and conformity but I have already ranted about religion.
Body building is the only real thing I have ever really done. Construction was good for skill building, but you will get used if you don't stand up for yourself. When you show the bully boss you know the game, they get shittier and call you "woke". If woke means woke up and wise to the game then that's what I am. This state in the south likes to control it's people with it's religious agenda. The alcohol sunday law is a perfect example, The new medical cannabis law also illustrates it. Cannabis is cannabis no matter how you label it, but conservative states have to call it medical so they can feel better about having to allow it. The truth is, cannabis is safer than alcohol, but the stigma forces that gateway d**g to remain open, so that young drivers can cause accidents to innocent people. This country is truly ignorant as long as it vilifies a medicinal herb, and glorifies a poison. The main reason I am not gainfully employed in some cubical somewhere is because I am not equipped for office work. I should have been a farmer who rides a harly on the weekends. Now I aspire to be a farmer with enough land to have a little track for a sport bike. But I digress. Every job I have ever had was about fitting in, except body building. In my bedroom in front of the mirror I only have myself to answer to weather I do it or not. I don't have to keep up with a time sheet. I have to worry about meeting the second in command in the hall on the way to get another free cup to answer the question, "what are you working on?". The answer used to be "five o'clock", followed with a sheepish grin of subordination. When you work for a company, you are a slave to the dollar. That is who you answer to, it just goes through the boss, and their attitude. And many bosses I have had are absolutely snobby about giving you anything at all, much less what you are worth. Modern day slavery. Body building is the work from home that is ultra low stress, no zoom call, lift in the nude and like what you see while you do it. Porn is the portal to the viewers who praise the efforts with kind words, the money will come, I'm still "closet" to the normals.
Normals are those individuals who literally laugh at someone who practices health and wellness. If you know someone who laughs at people who do yoga and eat healthy, or are one yourself, that is called "being a normal". A "normal" is the kind of person who would beat up a cross dresser. A "normal" is the kind of person who could very easily become addicted to a controlled substance. A "normal" is a conformist. A church is full of people trying to be "normal". The governor of Florida is enacting laws to enforce normalcy, or his conservative version of it. Conservatives are shitty, judgy, holier than thou snobs and I am glad I gave up many years ago caring about what they think. But that is the stigma I have lived with, that thing called attitude. But that rebellion is overpowered by the admiration I have for my amazing body in a pair of stiletto heels.
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