My first (and only) boyfriend (2)
he spoke so smooothly...and not ghetto at all. (which wouldve been perfectly fine if he did, but for me, i prefer proper english) even his voice was better than mine. i mean he was perfect, theres no other way to say it. i thought to myself <holy shit, hes talking to you ...answer him you idiot> so i basically agreed with everything he said for the next few minutes until my order came up. ..i mustve been obviously nervous....because he picked up on it.
he kept talking because his order wasnt up yet and unbeknownst to me he had plans for me...so he asked which gym i went to, opening the door for more conversation...i asked him where he went. and we started talking about lifting and meathead stuff. so he gets his coffee and i say "it was nice meeting you" i thought the conversation was over and i just wanted to get out of there..there was NO WAY i would ask HIM OUT.
He followed me to the door (which i was keenly aware of even though he was behind me. it made me anxious because i felt like he was about to devour me) close enough to get a whiff of me, REALLY close. i walk out and start briskly walking to the corner.., trying to ignore the fact that he walked up behind me as we left. He calls out to me half chuckling because my behavior was that of a scared girl...i SHOULDVE turned and said "yo ...whats wrong with you, back off" but i didnt.
So this is the part where my greatest fear and greatest hope were revealed. He said "hold up bay be"...words i will never forget
bay be? i nearly shit myself. it was instantly clear that he was, in fact coming onto me the whole time. I was at once happy that he wanted me...and scared to death because this could escalate quickly and i HAD NO IDEA WHAT I WAS DOING. I WASNT GAY...but i WANTED to be. WITH HIM.
so again, instead of calling him out for his out of pocket behavior i pretended i didnt hear hear him. Instead of "what the fuck did you just say?" ...i said "um excuse me?" he stepped closer and said "where are you going?" my heart was beating so fast i thought i was going to have a heart attack, i said "umm nowhere" at this moment i was ready to skip my first day at a new job and go on a gay adventure. i shouldve said "Im going to work". He said "ok then youre not in a hurry, talk to me" and I said "ok"
he kept talking because his order wasnt up yet and unbeknownst to me he had plans for me...so he asked which gym i went to, opening the door for more conversation...i asked him where he went. and we started talking about lifting and meathead stuff. so he gets his coffee and i say "it was nice meeting you" i thought the conversation was over and i just wanted to get out of there..there was NO WAY i would ask HIM OUT.
He followed me to the door (which i was keenly aware of even though he was behind me. it made me anxious because i felt like he was about to devour me) close enough to get a whiff of me, REALLY close. i walk out and start briskly walking to the corner.., trying to ignore the fact that he walked up behind me as we left. He calls out to me half chuckling because my behavior was that of a scared girl...i SHOULDVE turned and said "yo ...whats wrong with you, back off" but i didnt.
So this is the part where my greatest fear and greatest hope were revealed. He said "hold up bay be"...words i will never forget
bay be? i nearly shit myself. it was instantly clear that he was, in fact coming onto me the whole time. I was at once happy that he wanted me...and scared to death because this could escalate quickly and i HAD NO IDEA WHAT I WAS DOING. I WASNT GAY...but i WANTED to be. WITH HIM.
so again, instead of calling him out for his out of pocket behavior i pretended i didnt hear hear him. Instead of "what the fuck did you just say?" ...i said "um excuse me?" he stepped closer and said "where are you going?" my heart was beating so fast i thought i was going to have a heart attack, i said "umm nowhere" at this moment i was ready to skip my first day at a new job and go on a gay adventure. i shouldve said "Im going to work". He said "ok then youre not in a hurry, talk to me" and I said "ok"
8 months ago