Gender Dysphoria and Pornography
Have you realized that if you type "transsexual" into any search engine you will get a lot of hookup services and pornography?
I think many do not bother, but it is strange if you are actually looking for information or a community because you feel you are different. I have been looking for ways to understand myself better, and hence I have been interested in studying the concept "transsexual" "transgender" etc. But I just find porn. "Want to fuck a transsexual?" - is the question that is addressed by commercial banners just as if thats what I am looking for. I think this illustrates that there are more horny men who type transsexual into search engines than people who actually have a personal interest in fining out things about transsexuality and of oneself.
I am starting to think that transsexuality cannot be detached from the sexualized role it has in our society. It is similar to how womanhood also is stuck in the claws of sexualization (or sexism).
Well, anyway, I fin it somethimes funny... or maybe funny is the wrong word. There is a certain bitterness to this funny-ness. Or, let's say like this: It is not funny but it makes me laugh, OK: That all the tranny ladies on sites like these are worshiped for their beauty(and you better be beautiful or you're out!) And most of us work on being beautiful. We do everything to feel happy including taking care of our looks and to be nice to people around. And the equation is simple: The hotter, the more femme you are, the more "friends" you will have and the more you will be perceived as a woman. Then men want to do all kinds of things with you including everything from casual anal-sex to marriage. Men find all the cute transsexuals and are day-dreaming while scrolling through their fabulous picture-albums. OK, this is the bitter part: While it all is a fabulous, glittery and pornoghraphically mesmerizing drag show on the surface, there is possible hell underneath it. The most sparkling queens can be conveying a mind tortured by GID (type that into your search engine if its new to you).
When the shows over, the wig is in a box, and you fall asleep smothering mascara into your pillow case - Who the f* cares about you then? (I am not bitter I am just asking, I have somebody who cares... I know)
And yes, I see the irony in posting this on a "just porn no bullshit site" ;) Maybe this is the "Bullshit". Well sorry, but I sometimes enjoy shitting in sand-castles (Maybe that idiom does not exist in the English language? But you get the joke, right...)
Rock on!
Love!
Bunz
I think many do not bother, but it is strange if you are actually looking for information or a community because you feel you are different. I have been looking for ways to understand myself better, and hence I have been interested in studying the concept "transsexual" "transgender" etc. But I just find porn. "Want to fuck a transsexual?" - is the question that is addressed by commercial banners just as if thats what I am looking for. I think this illustrates that there are more horny men who type transsexual into search engines than people who actually have a personal interest in fining out things about transsexuality and of oneself.
I am starting to think that transsexuality cannot be detached from the sexualized role it has in our society. It is similar to how womanhood also is stuck in the claws of sexualization (or sexism).
Well, anyway, I fin it somethimes funny... or maybe funny is the wrong word. There is a certain bitterness to this funny-ness. Or, let's say like this: It is not funny but it makes me laugh, OK: That all the tranny ladies on sites like these are worshiped for their beauty(and you better be beautiful or you're out!) And most of us work on being beautiful. We do everything to feel happy including taking care of our looks and to be nice to people around. And the equation is simple: The hotter, the more femme you are, the more "friends" you will have and the more you will be perceived as a woman. Then men want to do all kinds of things with you including everything from casual anal-sex to marriage. Men find all the cute transsexuals and are day-dreaming while scrolling through their fabulous picture-albums. OK, this is the bitter part: While it all is a fabulous, glittery and pornoghraphically mesmerizing drag show on the surface, there is possible hell underneath it. The most sparkling queens can be conveying a mind tortured by GID (type that into your search engine if its new to you).
When the shows over, the wig is in a box, and you fall asleep smothering mascara into your pillow case - Who the f* cares about you then? (I am not bitter I am just asking, I have somebody who cares... I know)
And yes, I see the irony in posting this on a "just porn no bullshit site" ;) Maybe this is the "Bullshit". Well sorry, but I sometimes enjoy shitting in sand-castles (Maybe that idiom does not exist in the English language? But you get the joke, right...)
Rock on!
Love!
Bunz
12 years ago
