Net neutrality
Timing couldn't be worse. I'm learning how a burn heals. The wound is not a big deal at all. When healing starts deep down in nerves, that changes everything. I want to talk about net neutrality. I want to talk about what I learned about xhamster that made me very fucking proud of the time I spend here. I can't type. I can't stand pecking at a keyboard with one finger. I do pray that we can all still communicate in a few weeks. I researched the possible effects of removing net neutrality on internet porn. The term 'vanilla' was used a lot. I bet the first thing internet companies will do is upcharge users who wan to visit free porn sites. I know at this point, if you take away a man's access to free porn...he can become a ticking time bomb. Orgasms relieve stress. Most men can not have an orgasm without visual stimulation. Removing porn will affect issues like domestic v******e, irrational behavior, c***d abuse, d**g use, gun v******e, sexual harassment, job performance and more. I have been around men who lose their goddamn mind if they can't masturbate. I've seen men get so damn mean it scared me only to find out all that rage was caused by unexpected impotence. I may be a feminist. I'm also an advocate for pornography.
I read articles online where an xhamster spokesperson tried to make people understand this site does things like letting the LGTBQ meet people who they can discuss discrimination. It's a place where amateurs determine what is sexy instead of hollywood.. Here, the sexiest thing a woman can do is be real. When people ask me how I ended up on a porn site, I tell them I came here with absolutely no self-confidence. I found out that the most searched words were amateur, bbw, and milf. I realized my weight was a bonus not a flaw. I realized my age was a bonus and not a deal breaker. I learned that society is changing. It's a compliment when someone calls my pussy fat. It's a compliment when someone tells me my ass is fat. I feel so fucking lucky to know that you can be a beautiful woman no matter what your body looks like by simply being confident and friendly. I try to tell old friends not to worry about losing a few pounds. They don't realize they are already beautiful.
In my recent pics, a good friend pointed out I've lost weight. I've lost a lot of weight recently. I can't eat food with folic acid in it. That means I can't eat anything processed. My weight loss isn't planned. It's cool to fit in new clothes. But, if my weight drops too low, I lose my appeal. I dated a guy all summer knowing he wasn't comfortable with my weight. I was kept a secret fwb. I'd leave his house and come home to these ironic comments from men who told me I was perfect and they'd love to be with me. The guy I dated never wanted to see my page. He was pro-porn. He was not pro-bbw. I learned to embrace that label. I googled halinaplays for the first time tonight. Before the end of neutrality, I needed to see where you could find me. There were fifty fucking pages.
I am posted on basically every possible site devoted to bbw and chubby chicks. I should've been embarrassed. I felt like I did my part as a woman to let people know that it's okay not to be thin. It's also okay to be fucking bald and wear wigs. Weird shit happens when you dress up like little red riding hood. No one told me that video which is one minute and twenty four seconds long is everywhere. There are so many sites devoted to sexually explicit variations of little red riding hood. That video was an accident because i tried to take a pic and started recording and I said ;what the hel'l and flashed my pussy. Now at least a million people have seen my vagina. And that is fucking hilarious.
The other big winner was me dressed in an indian costume for thanksgiving. I don't know how many indian fetish sites there are. I can't make this up. My thanksgiving cosplay is on a site that has the name or description 'extremely powerful indian vaginas.' I found out what searches lead to my profile. One of them is 'anime bbw.' My favorite is 'nervous, shy, chubby, pussy.' That's awesome. I am seriously shy about videos. If I wasn't shy, I'd make a video in every costume. There are a lot of people pretending to be me and probably earning money. I did sign up for xvideos and i posted stuff there. I got bored with it. I just haven't bothered to take down my profile. I've never put myself on a bbw, chubby site. You'll find me there. You'll think it's me because they copy and paste exactly what I write on my xham profile. Oddly enough, I don't think you get a link to either of my tumblr pages. I got bored there too. I don't care about people catfishing with my pics and writing. I would never sue anyone for using stuff I post. I'm kind of flattered people put me on sites and build up the concept of halinaplays. It's kind of like I realized there are people ghost writing for me.
I don't know if the internet will be the same. I think eventually they will have to reinstate net neutrality. Anything could happen. I'm proud to be a part of this site because this site does fight for things like planned parenthood and sex education. I just found this quote ' we think that making sex videos is a revolutionary act,' I feel like I accidentally ended up being part of the revolution of sexuality. I am glad I am on a site that does more than bitch about the fact it might be harder to find specific fetish porn. Instead, they issue a statement like this
"As an international company, we see every day how restrictive governments use regulatory tools, like traffic throttling, to limit access to not only porn but political speech," Hawkins told me. "What people sometimes miss, especially in the United States and Western Europe, is that sexual speech is political speech. The same governments that severely restrict adult content are also the ones that limit sexual expression, LGBTQ rights, women's rights and access to different ideas."
i can't feel either hand because the left wound is numb from a burn and the other hand is numb from pecking at this keyboard to write this goddamn blog. I will be moving my blog about life when I can type again. But, it felt important to right about net neutrality and finding out I'm a proud member of 'extremely powerful indian vaginas.here on xhamster' If the revolution is over, we still changed everything. American women just don't know that fat women like me got naked online and men liked it. Men realized that porn made in studios can have the opposite affect than what is intended. A man can see a thin, blonde, teenage porn star with fake tits and the only thing they feel is inadequate. They realize that girl isn't going to be an option. But, there are women who aren't perfect that make them feel incredible. Those imperfections turn visual stimulation into a fantasy that could actually happen. I don't discuss it. Halinaplays has, does, and will have real life encounters with people on this site. It may just be for coffee. But, i'm real.
I read articles online where an xhamster spokesperson tried to make people understand this site does things like letting the LGTBQ meet people who they can discuss discrimination. It's a place where amateurs determine what is sexy instead of hollywood.. Here, the sexiest thing a woman can do is be real. When people ask me how I ended up on a porn site, I tell them I came here with absolutely no self-confidence. I found out that the most searched words were amateur, bbw, and milf. I realized my weight was a bonus not a flaw. I realized my age was a bonus and not a deal breaker. I learned that society is changing. It's a compliment when someone calls my pussy fat. It's a compliment when someone tells me my ass is fat. I feel so fucking lucky to know that you can be a beautiful woman no matter what your body looks like by simply being confident and friendly. I try to tell old friends not to worry about losing a few pounds. They don't realize they are already beautiful.
In my recent pics, a good friend pointed out I've lost weight. I've lost a lot of weight recently. I can't eat food with folic acid in it. That means I can't eat anything processed. My weight loss isn't planned. It's cool to fit in new clothes. But, if my weight drops too low, I lose my appeal. I dated a guy all summer knowing he wasn't comfortable with my weight. I was kept a secret fwb. I'd leave his house and come home to these ironic comments from men who told me I was perfect and they'd love to be with me. The guy I dated never wanted to see my page. He was pro-porn. He was not pro-bbw. I learned to embrace that label. I googled halinaplays for the first time tonight. Before the end of neutrality, I needed to see where you could find me. There were fifty fucking pages.
I am posted on basically every possible site devoted to bbw and chubby chicks. I should've been embarrassed. I felt like I did my part as a woman to let people know that it's okay not to be thin. It's also okay to be fucking bald and wear wigs. Weird shit happens when you dress up like little red riding hood. No one told me that video which is one minute and twenty four seconds long is everywhere. There are so many sites devoted to sexually explicit variations of little red riding hood. That video was an accident because i tried to take a pic and started recording and I said ;what the hel'l and flashed my pussy. Now at least a million people have seen my vagina. And that is fucking hilarious.
The other big winner was me dressed in an indian costume for thanksgiving. I don't know how many indian fetish sites there are. I can't make this up. My thanksgiving cosplay is on a site that has the name or description 'extremely powerful indian vaginas.' I found out what searches lead to my profile. One of them is 'anime bbw.' My favorite is 'nervous, shy, chubby, pussy.' That's awesome. I am seriously shy about videos. If I wasn't shy, I'd make a video in every costume. There are a lot of people pretending to be me and probably earning money. I did sign up for xvideos and i posted stuff there. I got bored with it. I just haven't bothered to take down my profile. I've never put myself on a bbw, chubby site. You'll find me there. You'll think it's me because they copy and paste exactly what I write on my xham profile. Oddly enough, I don't think you get a link to either of my tumblr pages. I got bored there too. I don't care about people catfishing with my pics and writing. I would never sue anyone for using stuff I post. I'm kind of flattered people put me on sites and build up the concept of halinaplays. It's kind of like I realized there are people ghost writing for me.
I don't know if the internet will be the same. I think eventually they will have to reinstate net neutrality. Anything could happen. I'm proud to be a part of this site because this site does fight for things like planned parenthood and sex education. I just found this quote ' we think that making sex videos is a revolutionary act,' I feel like I accidentally ended up being part of the revolution of sexuality. I am glad I am on a site that does more than bitch about the fact it might be harder to find specific fetish porn. Instead, they issue a statement like this
"As an international company, we see every day how restrictive governments use regulatory tools, like traffic throttling, to limit access to not only porn but political speech," Hawkins told me. "What people sometimes miss, especially in the United States and Western Europe, is that sexual speech is political speech. The same governments that severely restrict adult content are also the ones that limit sexual expression, LGBTQ rights, women's rights and access to different ideas."
i can't feel either hand because the left wound is numb from a burn and the other hand is numb from pecking at this keyboard to write this goddamn blog. I will be moving my blog about life when I can type again. But, it felt important to right about net neutrality and finding out I'm a proud member of 'extremely powerful indian vaginas.here on xhamster' If the revolution is over, we still changed everything. American women just don't know that fat women like me got naked online and men liked it. Men realized that porn made in studios can have the opposite affect than what is intended. A man can see a thin, blonde, teenage porn star with fake tits and the only thing they feel is inadequate. They realize that girl isn't going to be an option. But, there are women who aren't perfect that make them feel incredible. Those imperfections turn visual stimulation into a fantasy that could actually happen. I don't discuss it. Halinaplays has, does, and will have real life encounters with people on this site. It may just be for coffee. But, i'm real.
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