More comfortable being bisexual
(I promise I'll get back to my ritual comversion fantasy, soon. In the meantime, I'd love more comments from readers).
Lately, I've been getting a pretty good diet of pussy. Mostly my regular girlfriend, who never ceases to amaze me, a few casual hookups, and some intense sessions with girlfriend's new girlfriend. She's mostly lesbian, but very submissive and obendient to my gal, and so takes cock willingly and orgasms hard for both of us, even though she says having hetero orgasms is emotionally difficult and humiliating in a way she can't describe. I feel bad saying that sometimes makes it hotter, and my girl, who is not only more gay than I am but also more sadistic, really gets off on it.
The reason I bring it up is that, though I haven't touched another guy in months, I'm thinking about it more and more. When I'm here masturbating to porn, I get really turned on by much gayer material than ever before, and my fantasies usually consist of handome young men sucking each other's cocks in all sorts of different scenarios. Now I've had my cock in dozens of mens' and womens' mouths, and had dozends of cocks in mine, but whenever I orgasm with a male, there's that odd, bisexual feeling of humiliation. And I realize I really have to explore that a lot more. I guess it's similiar to our little lezzy slavegirl, but there'as also a weird pleasure that I feel.
So for example, when I suck and tease a guy till he can't hold back anymore and spays my chest and cock with sperm, I guess I still feel in control. Even when of Firmly slide his face over my cock and enjoy him stimulating my penis, all powerful, and hot, but as the moment where I know I'm going to cum approaches, a part of me wants to fight it, and when I was a k**, it used to. Now I relax, and it's almost like I'm dominating myself in some S&M scenario as I force myself to let it happen. The orgasm hits, and that part of me saying "NO!" it making the other part of me sooo turned on. I can almost hear a it comanding me "Squeeze your ass! Pump out that cum! More! More! All of it!!" And I do, as the climax receeds and I slide my saliva-covered, still hard cock out of the boy's mouth, I wish it would get soft so he couldn't see how much pleasure I felt.
That's where that submissive fantasy comes from. I realize I have to be fucked in the ass, even though I don't like recieving anam stimulation, not for my pleasure, but because my sexuality makes it so important that as much as I get pleasure feeding a man sperm, I have to be a receptacle for another man's use and pleasure, and the mroe humiliating it is, and the more naked I feel when he makes me cum--if he choses to do so--the more in touch with my (bi)sexuality I will be.
Lately, I've been getting a pretty good diet of pussy. Mostly my regular girlfriend, who never ceases to amaze me, a few casual hookups, and some intense sessions with girlfriend's new girlfriend. She's mostly lesbian, but very submissive and obendient to my gal, and so takes cock willingly and orgasms hard for both of us, even though she says having hetero orgasms is emotionally difficult and humiliating in a way she can't describe. I feel bad saying that sometimes makes it hotter, and my girl, who is not only more gay than I am but also more sadistic, really gets off on it.
The reason I bring it up is that, though I haven't touched another guy in months, I'm thinking about it more and more. When I'm here masturbating to porn, I get really turned on by much gayer material than ever before, and my fantasies usually consist of handome young men sucking each other's cocks in all sorts of different scenarios. Now I've had my cock in dozens of mens' and womens' mouths, and had dozends of cocks in mine, but whenever I orgasm with a male, there's that odd, bisexual feeling of humiliation. And I realize I really have to explore that a lot more. I guess it's similiar to our little lezzy slavegirl, but there'as also a weird pleasure that I feel.
So for example, when I suck and tease a guy till he can't hold back anymore and spays my chest and cock with sperm, I guess I still feel in control. Even when of Firmly slide his face over my cock and enjoy him stimulating my penis, all powerful, and hot, but as the moment where I know I'm going to cum approaches, a part of me wants to fight it, and when I was a k**, it used to. Now I relax, and it's almost like I'm dominating myself in some S&M scenario as I force myself to let it happen. The orgasm hits, and that part of me saying "NO!" it making the other part of me sooo turned on. I can almost hear a it comanding me "Squeeze your ass! Pump out that cum! More! More! All of it!!" And I do, as the climax receeds and I slide my saliva-covered, still hard cock out of the boy's mouth, I wish it would get soft so he couldn't see how much pleasure I felt.
That's where that submissive fantasy comes from. I realize I have to be fucked in the ass, even though I don't like recieving anam stimulation, not for my pleasure, but because my sexuality makes it so important that as much as I get pleasure feeding a man sperm, I have to be a receptacle for another man's use and pleasure, and the mroe humiliating it is, and the more naked I feel when he makes me cum--if he choses to do so--the more in touch with my (bi)sexuality I will be.
14 years ago
