Discontentment...

I am a woman with primal needs, sexual needs, but more so craving being held down and passionate sexual exchange throughout the day while listening to music.

I guess I need attention and affection.

I isolate myself in my bedroom.

I know the feeling of wanting a partner. I crave to feel that.

I am someone that needs to be touched and shown affection, yet I live with someone who does not. It leads me to feel badly, and ...today is one of those "bad" days.

Years ago I had a male friend that would come over when I'd feel like this, he would hug me and we would spend the evening watching TV as he held me on the couch. We would cook dinner together. No sex, sometimes we would kiss, but that was it.
Today, I miss even having that.