New way to degrade myself

I found a new way to prove myself what kind of whortless beta i am.
Masturbating over pics of girls i like in which their boyfriends appear too.
It constantly reminds me the hard truth: all the girls i like and i crave for are engaged with real men who can satisfy them, while i can only jerk off all alone in my misery.
I'm not bi at all, so having male faces looking at me while i wank really spoils it.
But that is what betas deserve.